Inside Insanity

I can't sing it
I feel like singin'
I wanna fuckin' sing
Cuz I'm happy
Yeah, I'm happy
Ha ha
I got my baby back
Check it out


Some days I sit, starin' out the window
Watchin' this world pass me by
Sometimes I think there's nothin' to live for
I almost break down and cry

Somtimes I think I'm crazy
I'm crazy, oh so crazy
Why am I here, am I just wasting my time ?

But then I see my baby
Suddenly I'm not crazy
It all makes sense when I look into her eyes


Somtimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders
Everyone's leanin' on me
Cuz sometimes it feels like the world's almost over
But then she comes back to me


My baby girl keeps gettin' older
I watch her grow up with pride
People make jokes, cuz they don't understand me
They just don't see my real side

I act like shit don't phase me,
Inside it drives me crazy
My insecurities could eat me alive

But then I see my baby
Suddenly I'm not crazy
It all makes sense when I look into her eyes


Somtimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders
Everyone's leanin' on me
Cuz sometimes it feels like the world's almost over
But then she comes back to me


Man, if I could sing, I'd keep singing this song to my daughter
If I could hit the notes, I'd blow something as long as my father
To show her how I feel about her, how proud I am that I got her
God, I'm a daddy, I'm so glad that her mum didn't abort
Now you probly get this picture from my public persona
That I'm a pistol-packing drug-addict who bags on his momma,
But I wanna just take this time out to be perfectly honest
Cuz there's a lot of shit I keep bottled that hurts deep inside o' my soul,
And just know that I grow colder the older I grow
This boulder on my shoulder gets heavy and harder to hold
And this load is like the weight of the world
And I think my neck is breaking should I just give up,
Or try to live up to these expectations ?
Now look, I love my daughter more than life in itself,
But I got a wife that's determined to make my life livin'hell
But I handle it well, given the circumstances I'm dealt
So many chances, man, it's too bad, coulda had someone else
But the years that I've wasted are nothing to the tears that I've tasted
So here's what I'm facin' :
Three felonies, six years of probation
I've went to jail for this woman, I've been to bat for this woman
I've taken bats to peoples backs, bent over backwards for this woman
Man, I shoulda seen it comin', why'd I stick my penis up in?
Woulda ripped the pre-nup up if I'd seen what she was fuckin'
But fuck it, it's over, there's no more reason to cry no more
I got my baby, baby the only lady that I adore, Hailie
So sayonara, try tomorra, nice to know ya
My baby's travelled back to the arms of her rightful owner
And suddenly it seems that my shoulder blades have just shifted
It's like the greatest gift you can get
The weight has been lifted

Now it don't feel like the world's on my shoulders
Everyone's leanin' on me
Cuz my baby know's that her daddy's a soldier
Nothin' can take her from me


I told you I can't sing
Oh well, I tried
Hailie, 'member when I said
If you ever need anything, daddy will be right there ?
Well guess what ?
Daddy's here
And I ain't goin'nowhere baby
I love you

Like a target drawn across my chest,
She's a bullet in russian roulette
You said you'd never turn your back on me
Rescue me, rescue me !
Would you stand by me, or bury me ?
Bury me !

Why don't we end this lie ?
I can't pretend this time
I need a friend to find
My broken mind, before it falls to pieces...

Every time
This suffering
You tried to leave me blind
This suffering
You'll never close my eyes
This suffering
You'll never close my eyes and watch me die


And when she spins the bottle round and round
Everytime it leaves me gagged and bound
You said you'd never turn your back on me
Rescue me, rescue me !
Would you stand by me, or bury me ?
Bury me !

Why don't we end this lie ?
I can't pretend this time
I need a friend to find
My broken mind, before it falls to pieces...

End this lie ?
This suffering
I can't pretend this time
This suffering
I need a friend to find
This suffering
My broken mind, before it falls to pieces.

Every time
This suffering
You tried to leave me blind
This suffering
You'll never close my eyes
This suffering
You'll never close my eyes and watch me die !


Misery won't get the best of me,
'Cause now I'm calling, yes, I'm calling on your bluff
Misery won't get the best of me,
'Cause now I'm calling, yes, I'm calling on your bluff
Throw down the cards, I've had enough


Why don't we end this lie ?
I can't pretend this time
I need a friend to find
My broken mind, before it falls to pieces...

Every time
This suffering
You tried to leave me blind
This suffering
You'll never close my eyes
This suffering
You'll never close my eyes and watch me die

End this lie ?
This suffering
I can't pretend this time
This suffering
I need a friend to find
This suffering
My broken mind, before it falls to pieces

Every time
This suffering
You tried to leave me blind
This suffering
You'll never close my eyes
This suffering
You'll never close my eyes and watch me die

In a crooked little town, they were lost and never found
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground


I hitched a ride
Until the coast
To leave behind
All of my ghosts
Searching for something
I couldn't find at home

Can't get no job
Can you spare a dime ?
Just one more hit
And I'll be fine
I swear to God
This'll be my one last time !

In a crooked little town, they were lost and never found
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground
Run away before you drown, or the streets will beat you down
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground


When it gets dark
In Pigeon Park
Voice in my head
Will soon be fed
By the vultures
That circle round the dead

In a crooked little town, they were lost and never found
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground
Run away before you drown, or the streets will beat you down
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground


I never once thought
I'd ever be caught
Staring at sidewalks
Hiding my track marks
I left my best friends
Or did they just leave me ?

In a crooked little town, they were lost and never found
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground
In a crooked little town, they were lost and never found
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground
Run away before you drown, or the streets will beat you down
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground

Run away before you drown !
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground
Run away before you drown !
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground

Never understood how she could
Mean so little to so many
Why does she mean everything to me ?

Is it worth the pain
With no one to blame ?
For all of my insecurities
How did I ever let you go ?

Questioning her good intention
Jealousy's a bad invention
When you push on glass, it's bound to break

Even when she was defensive
It just gave me more incentive
The more you squeeze, the more it slips away

I never walked so far
On a lonely street
With no-one there for me
Is it worth the pain
With no one to blame ?
For all of my insecurities
How did I ever let you go ?


Accept this confession ! ...I'm walking on pins and needles
You're not my possession ! ...I'm walking on pins and needles
My conscience is vicious ! ...I'm walking on pins and needles
I'm begging forgiveness ! ...I'm walking on pins and needles


I never walked so far
On a lonely street,
With no one there for me
It took so long to see
Her in misery
And now it's clear to me

That it's worth the pain
Always take the blame
For all your own insecurities
How did I ever let you go ?